My freeworld diet was high in MAOI’s. In this place, I have become incredibly depressed – months of captivity in filth, with no sunlight, no fresh air, no exercise, and a constant threat of violence are all slowly murdering my soul.
The doctor prescribed Citalopram: I used it for about two weeks before I began to experience a side effect of twitching headaches. I asked the doctor to prescribe an MAOI due to my experience with natural MAOI’s.
He refused, and instead prescribed Zoloft.
I asked the nurse to print out the side effects for me. In my opinion, it is criminal to give out harmful drugs like Zoloft, which causes insomnia in 21% of people, nausea in 26% of people, headaches in 22% of people, and a host of other side effects.
I asked the nurse for natural antidepressants, which do not require a prescription and are not controlled substances – I want Syrian Rue. I want Golden Milk (turmeric & black pepper).
She said that is not allowed.
My depression is serious. I rarely get out of bed anymore. Some animals cannot be kept in captivity because they essentially lose the will to live – they stop eating. The food here is poison anyway – even before they poison it.
At Caldwell, a neighboring county – prisoners are known to have been punished with a water soluble poison that is gone from the body in 72 hours – this is not to kill a person, but to sicken and torture them.
The extent of the corruption is deep. One person overheard police discussing if they should plant meth on him because they didn’t find any. In his case they did not, but it’s common.
Searching a property immediately after a fresh arrest is detained in isolation is common here, too – I have met two others that had the same thing done to them.
Inside here, I feel like there is not much left that I can do to help myself.